I learnt that altruism and selfless communist efforts for others without anything in return is impossible to keep doing. You cannot neglect or ignore yourself. You must be a little selfish and give a fuck about your existence. Basically, I am the opposite of what the world is, and it is not working, because the world is a steaming pile of shit with too much individualism and capitalism.

I understood in practice never to trust what anyone says, instead only trust and judge people by their actions. The social landscape is fucking evil and its here to devour sane, good men like me without regret or concern. You will be told nobody cares about men and their problems, to which all you need to do is avoid helping them. Save yourself, because ultimately nobody will come for you.

Cut off jackasses that you help, but never help you in bad times. They are life energy sucking parasites with an ego fatter than the fattest pig in town.

Its okay to disconnect from the garbage world we live in. Its okay to disconnect from politics. Its okay to disconnect from internet and social media. Its okay to ignore others’ problems for your own. Prioritise yourself.

The world is not as nice as the “inclusive” propaganda makes it seem like, and people in reality do love to judge and exclude others based on irrational methodology. Morality is not something set in stone, but is a vague guideline, one to be followed and utilised with honesty, not with bigotry.

I met a wonderful woman. We are dating now

Bought a house and started my dream job

I bought a house after saving for 6 long years.

Won conference championships in indoor and outdoor collegiate track and field. Ran a half marathon after years of chronic knee problems. Won a piano competition and performed with a full orchestra. Wrote a 48 page honors thesis and presented it. Formed a jazz trio. Graduated college. It’s been a cool 365 days, I’m grateful to not know how to pick the best thing.

My car was totaled and I walked away.

I can finally be myself and I even started dating and it’s actually enjoyable now.

i made a person

I started turning away from atheism. I’ve always wanted to believe in God but i was literally unable to.

I got an invitation from someone I had been talking to online to come and have dinner with their family. It. Was. Awesome. I got a tour of their gardens, talked pest management, chicken composting, and propagation strategies, got a ukulele concert from their usually shy daughter with some special medical needs (and got to play something for her on the instrument she never shares), and had a lovely meal from their garden. Oh, and we traded plants and cuttings with each other to help diversify our gardens (and who they support)!