Because tbh I don’t see myself and many others getting a partner or anything similar that is “the real deal”. Not gonna lie, if robots were as advanced as they are in sci-fi movies I would had married one and had those as friends.
I think all that will only be advanced enough when I’m gone unfortunately…
Everyone is capable of change. And I mean this as gently as possible, but it looks from your post history that you might benefit from talking to a therapist. It seems like you’re in a deep depression hole, and I know it can be hard to see it in the moment, but therapy, medication, and lifestyle changes can really do wonders for improving your mood and outlook on life.