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Cake day: July 4th, 2023

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  • I don’t mean to put myself in the place of anything - I just meant that the better course of action is to find improvement rather than fault. It’s a situation where being able to put the blame on something does nothing to improve the situation. We’re lonely because there are too many people is all.

    There’s a lot of people at fault for things in my life and if I worried about blaming them, I wouldn’t have had the time to get educated and grow as a human so that I could move past the things they are at fault, I was just trying to broaden that idea into something more general.












  • I still dream about smoking sometimes. At first I was worried that it was my own weakness and that I was going to back to smoking. Now I also get mad at myself for the dreams because I don’t even want a cigarette, why the fuck does my brain keep putting them in my dreams? I swear I can still smell them in my dreams and it’s gross lol. I hope that will go away one day too.

    Also, I would like to double down on your encouragement. Quit! Please quit as soon as physically possible. You and everyone around you will be glad you did. There are so many paths available now. If you are in Canada you might be able to get free help if you talk to a pharmacist. I didn’t pay anything for my Champex because the government wants us to quit too. I didn’t think that I could do it either- I’m the weakest motherfucker you could dream of and here I am, cigarette free since 2019.


  • Once I decided I didn’t want to smoke cigarettes anymore medication made the path easy. My biggest problem was getting out of the mindset. I enjoy the act of smoking and I convinced myself that things would be even worse if I quit cigarettes, that I’d get fat again and be unable to control my anxiety. I trapped myself hard and I couldn’t see it because the addiction spoke for me.

    I had “tried” to quit several times before, but they were half assed attempts because I didn’t really want to quit. I even convinced myself that the Champex would give me nightmares and make my mental illness worse ( it did not).

    I wholeheartedly recommend that anyone who needs to quit, but can’t, go on the Champex ( Chantix in the US). It worked so well I didn’t even go through the whole recommended cycle of pills and have not gone back to smoking after almost 5 years. It made me nauseous while I was on them and that really changed how my brain sees cigarettes. I thought at first I might relapse, but the smell of cigarettes is disgusting to me now.

    Now, I can’t speak to how well it dealt with the physical habit side of it, because I do still smoke pot, but by god I will never willingly put tobacco in my body again. I think it was the start of my self improvement, though I didn’t know it back then.