There’s no freedom in having to do something but you’re also not free to choose your wants.
Maybe it’s better to just live and let life happen instead of thinking about what could’ve been. What ever happened is the only thing that could’ve happened.
I knew it wasn’t good for me to start, I just used to enjoy them through the guilt until I made the conscious decision not to like them.
You didn’t just choose to not like them, though. That’s not how human psychology works.
I don’t know what to tell you. I decided one day that I didn’t want to like them anymore, and then I didn’t enjoy them enough to eat them from then on.